Church, not at church

My people:

seeds scattered across scapes

some raised in ready crowds

some grown alone

edged out among the distance.

You are quiet now:

Fellow laborers

letting the weight of the rake

drop itself back into the ground -

every bit helps,

every natural inclination you can leverage,

you do:

 

It is so hard to feel the purpose of the work.

It is so hard to look over your shoulder

and find only empty field.

 

In doing the work of God,

it is so hard to labor alone.

 

You can’t pretend this isn’t what is happening.

Any one of us would have finished

the effort of belief

if it didn’t involve Sunday morning meetings

with pews or cheap chairs

with wine or grape juice

with small plastic cups and small paper pamphlets

with a cultural inheritance we would rather forfeit.

 

I want to follow him

just not in droves.

 

So many of us have been cornered

by the logic of the deep and personal unknown

but cut off from the implication of him

in other humans.

 

In this eerie season of homeboundaries

in the callous quiet of the streets

in anticipated grief of coming disease

can’t we now know the need

to be together?

 

And if together in general

then together in purpose,

together in place,

together in pleading

together in praise.